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Go see a professional counselor so you will have someone to talk to about your problems. This is too much for anyone to hold in and try to deal with alone. If you are still in HS, see your guidance counselor for a referral. If you are an adult, make an appointment at the local family service agency. You are not crazy so I do not suggest a psychiatrist. You don't need meds; you need someone who will listen and help you figure out how to live your life despite them all.